It's always interesting to people watch at places like this. I could sit in the corner all day and dream up stories about what's going on in their lives. Like the couple to my right…the boy is very disheveled looking and the girl is very put together. They seem to be having a good time, but he has plans to move to California at the end of the summer. Her dad can't wait for him to leave because he thinks he's a good for nothing crazy that needs a haircut pronto! All she cares about are the songs he writes for her that make her heart flutter so fiercely she can barely breathe sometimes. Too bad he's made copies of those same songs for every girl he dates, but she doesn't know that yet. Let's let her have her hopes for a little while, because those hopes make her feel more alive than she ever has.
Somehow his awful hair and unkept beard is endearing to her because love is weird like that. She thinks about him constantly and he thinks about her as well when she's right in front of him, anyway. He used to think of her more, but now he'd rather think about his skateboard and future fame in Cali. Men CAN compartmentalize you know so he's got it good. Plus, she's started to nag too much because she keeps telling him he needs a job and it upsets him that she doesn't understand the skater life. He likes his time with her, but things will probably end when he moves. He's more into the summer fling and she's thinking wedding ring. In fact, she writes her first name with his last in her journal quite often, but too bad for her because their love affair will probably be a big blow up pretty soon. They will both wish it never happened, but at least they have this moment now. Because right now…both are happy and having a great time.
I wonder if people ever make stories up about me. Who is this girl in a bright yellow dress that sits alone in the corner staring at everybody? I am completely comfortable when alone in public so I sure hope nobody feels sorry for me. I always wanted to get a sign that says "Alone, but not lonely" to bring out with me in public. The truth is, I just can't get my internet installed until next Saturday and it's driving me crazy! Plus, it's more fun to get out and make up things about people. Even if people don't like to make up stories about me, I like to make up stories about myself. I can relate SO well to Anne of Green Gables because I do exactly what she does. I am always one step away from saying "Call me Cordelia!".
I sometimes think that time has put me in the wrong place. Because really I am from the 1800's where pale skin, a few extra pounds, and dowry's were in! I would be the girl showing up in a pale pink dress dress with lace and ruffles that fits me perfectly. Every grumpy aunt would always start pushing their nephews my way because I was the most sought after woman in town. I'd have my own hair stylist so I'd always look wonderful and my dance skills would sweep any man off his feet. The fact that there wasn't any air conditioner wouldn't bother me because I'd always be too busy happily picking wildflowers in the woods in my spare time. I'd have to be careful though because all the men would try to find me and court me on the woodland paths. They would be so bold as to try and hold my hand and I would have to slap them away or push them into poison ivy if they didn't get the picture. Finally I would fall in love with the poorest/cutest man in town and everyone would be shocked that the towns most eligible bachelorette chose a farm boy. He would think that he was the luckiest man in the world and I would pay for him to get a bath because my dowry was still in tact. He would thank me by carrying me off into the sunset.
Wouldn't that be beautiful? Just like Anne, I find myself brought back to reality even if I wish I could live in my imagination. Unfortunately, my reality is a little less extravagant. I'm just a girl sitting alone in starbucks giving my mind some free time to play. I'm just a girl figuring out what it's like to be a grown up and living on my own. I'm just a girl who calls the cable company and bank confused way too much. I'm just a girl that hears silence more now than I ever have. Living alone is a great thing, but I think it takes a really strong person to be able to do it. I go to sleep to silence…wake up to silence…come home in the afternoon to silence…and it can get a little eerie at times. If I weren't such terribly good company, I might get sad sometimes…...but luckily I have my dreams. :)
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