"Stop Rejecting Rejection!"

I am up three hours before I need to do anything which means I'm taking time to look out my huge window and think. My brain first went through the subject of God wanting our hearts much more than our acts of good deeds. Yes, those are important, but what He's after first and foremost is our hearts. And then I began to bask in the joy that I can give my full heart to the Lord and He will always take care of it no matter what. When you give your heart to humans it's conditional whether we think so or not. But the Lord is teaching me that I can't hold my heart back from people forever out of fear. Why would I give someone who hurt me that much power? And why would i give up having the chance to raise children who hear the name of Jesus daily and never doubt they are loved? That is needed these days! Satan would love for me to live by my rejection. But I can't do that. But I also think guarding my heart is important. Giving it to Joe blow is not smart. Trust me.

But that's not the only rejection that's been on my mind. Mostly because of a phone conversation I had with a friend from my old college. We were talking and I said something about meeting his girlfriend if they are ever around and he said: "I don't think you'd get along. Nobody understands you, Abby. They think you are kinda odd, but i get ya!" My heart sank a million miles and I tried so hard to act like it didn't hurt. That familiar lonliness and rejection washed over me like a wave of freezing water. When I got off the phone I just sat there repeating those words in my head. "Nobody understands you...nobody understands you. You are odd to people." Granted these people who found me odd where people who were drunk all the time and had porn on their tvs half the time I walked by. Those people were the ones that would love to see me drop all my morals. As I thought about these things I felt a rush of the holy spirit and these words came into my head: "don't be surprised if the world hates you." And then it was like one massive lightbulb when off.

What if being rejected is not always a bad thing? What if being rejected shows signs that something is RIGHT with you? I mean..this is extreme, but if I hung out with hitler and he thought I was awesome, that would show a problem with me I think! If he thought I was weird and rejected me, wouldn't that be a good thing? If I could completely relate to the bin laden and we were buddies, would that be good? Or would it be better for him to look at me and tell me I'm odd? Would him saying something negative about me really make it true? Nope. It'd mean I'm odd to bin laden, and being odd to bin laden and hitler would show there was something right. I know those are extreme, but it's to make a point. Maybe people who find their joy in alcohol and have no concern for the Lord are not the best judgers of worth. The true judge of that is Jesus and He knows me more than I know myself, and loves me reguardless! Why would I spend my nights crying over the negative thoughts humans have about me, when I am already more than accepted and loved?

So me not being able to fit in with those people shouldn't have crushed me so bad. But when that's all that is around it FEELS like they are right. Luckily that isn't the case. Jesus was rejected much more than me and He is worth everything! Just because certain folks don't like me doesn't mean I am destined to be misunderstood forever. At this college I am definitely understood! And as they say...one man's trash is another man's treasure! :)

So..moral of this post...don't always reject rejection. Sometimes it can be a good thing. Find your confidence in the Lord and you will be able to see that!